Wednesday, May 6, 2009


I'm not one for commercialized preaching, but a friend sent me a you tube link she thought I need to hear right now! I've been at this place in my life, where I think things are falling apart. She keeps telling, turn to Jesus; he'll help you through this season. This morning as I watched the you tube clip, I did I cry! The preacher talked about our bodies being made up of molecules; millions of molecules. One certain molecule called Laminin is a protein molecule that holds the other cells together! He placed a picture of the molecule on a screen; the below picture is what he showed.

This picture represents the molecular structure of one molecule of Laminin. Being a med student, I had to check it out! Very true....then I cried more! On one of the sites I checked, I found this verse....
Colossians 1:17....And HE is before all things and in HIM all things hold together.

WOW!!! I know in my heart, there are many days God is the reason I pull myself out of bed and keep moving. That HE has brought me through the storms of my life and will continue to do so. But I guess when you can see a picture representation and read HIS word....WOW! It just makes it pop!

Sunday, May 3, 2009


A dear friend sent me this email today; sometimes her timing is just when I need it! That's a God thing, like most things in our lives!

To get something you never had, you have to do something you never did. When God takes something from your grasp, he's not punishing you; but merely opening your hands to receive something better.

 'The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not
protect you.'

Sunday, April 19, 2009


Sometimes you just have to say......enough is enough!

Tuesday, April 14, 2009


I love sitting back and remembering all the memories stored in the back of my memory bank. I remember my first string of emails from Dan....

Dan: What's your favorite number?
Judi: Why?
Dan: Enquiring minds want to know.
Judi: Who wants to know?
Dan: Enquiring minds
Judi: UMMM...they're not the Enquire magazine! FINE....24 ( not sure why I said that!)

Next day....
Dan: What's your favorite color?
Judi: Why?
Dan: Enquiring minds want to know.
Judi: Who wants to know?
Dan: Don't worry about it, I'll tell you later!
Judi: Red

Couple days later....I didn't like the couple day wait; I was being reeled in!
Dan: What's your favorite flower?
Judi: Why?
Dan: Just answer.....
Judi: Yellow roses

Next email
Next email....Judi's tapping foot wondering what happened to this little game of cat & mouse!

Friday comes....YOU'VE GOT MAIL!!!
Dan: I'm going to Hooters (nice Dan) tonight with the guys I ski with; call if you want to meet for a drink. I'll be there until 6:00 or so....

Judi: HMMMM....should I call him or not?? Lunch time sitting in my office, I hear footsteps coming down the hallway. In front of those footsteps were the most BEAUTIFUL, long stem yellow roses! I know the glow on my face blinded everyone in the room. If only he knew.....if only he knew he put a little hope in my empty heart at that moment. You see, that Friday was the 1st anniversary of my mom passing away. I left work that day knowing that I had to move forward. exactly 5:59 I called Dan's beeper! Yes beeper, back then we didn't have cell phones!

We met for drinks that night and I knew something special happened that day. I miss those early email conversations, the silliness of the game, the newness of the relationship. I still get the beautiful flowers and usually when I need them the most; when I least expect it!

Thursday, April 2, 2009


I read somewhere if you put tinfoil on the furniture, it would keep pets off. Not our pets, that's for sure! I think sometimes in their mind, they allow us to sit on their furniture!

Gracie made her way past the tinfoil, to the middle of the couch!

Gracie somehow got under the tinfoil and made a little tent for herself!

Any suggestions on how to keep animals off the furniture would be greatly appreciated!

Friday, March 27, 2009


I'm so tired, I close my eyes; but can't sleep. Too many things haunting my dreams and thoughts. I long for the day when I can close my eyes and really sleep. My body is getting tired too, not sure how much longer this can continue.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009


One of my greatest fears is not of dying, but of dying from cancer. Watching people you love die of cancer really bites; I've watched it take my mother and good part of her family. It scares the crap out of me; I don't want to go that way! I feel like it's my destiny to leave this world that way & I'm going to fight like crazy for that not to happen!

About 2 months ago, I found a lump in my right breast. I tried to ignore it, but it wasn't going away. If I lay a certain way, I can feel it and it hurts! So I finally decided to get it checked and I'm not sure what hurts more; the lump or the mammogram. I watched the pictures develop on the monitor and saw the shadows; I could see the lump. In one way it was kinda cool and in another it's something you don't want to see. I know one thing, a woman did NOT develop the machine that does mammograms. Testing the dreaded wait! The envelope arrives, you open it....and you cry! Only this time, it's tears of happiness. Results are negative, no cancer! I have to get a follow-up exam and recheck in 6 months.

BUT....the lump is still there and it still hurts! What else is my body trying to tell me? Do I have the medical student disease? Am I going to get the symptoms from every disease I study? Am I going to drive myself completely mad searching for the answers to each pain, lump, creaking noise I hear or feel in my body? I guess only time will answer that question!

Monday, March 9, 2009

Father/Daughter Dance

This past month, Dan & Megan went to the father/daughter dance at school. I think I get more excited than they do, because I can finally dress Megan like a little girl. Normally I get to take Megan out shopping for a frilly dress, shoes, purse...the works! This year, they decided to do a "theme" dance. This year's dance was a western theme.
  • No frilly dress; it was replaced with blue jeans & flannel shirt
  • No patent leather shoes with lacy socks; cowboy boots and spurs took over
  • No up-do with spiral curls and glitter; it was replaced with a cowgirl hat (side note, I still curled her hair and put glitter on the ends!)
Dan & Megan father/daughter dance
Daddy's little girl growing up tooo quick!!!
Real Cowboys drive BIG trucks!!!

Megan all smiles for the camera!

Cowgirl up!!!!

The three amigos!!!

Dan and Megan both had a great time at the dance. Megan is in 5th grade this year, so this is the last father/daughter dance for school. It's that transition time from daddy's little girl, young lady. It seems like only yesterday, she was still in pull-ups! I wonder....will the next time Dan dances with his little girl....will it be at her wedding? HMMMM....only time will tell!


It's been a long time since I've posted anything. Many things have been happening in our lives, I've just been afraid of what I might say! On the outside, you try to keep the appearance that everything is ok; but you're lost on the inside. I've been lost the past couple months, but I'm slowing pulling myself out of the spinning world I live in these days. I'm thinking I can post on here again without worry I might say the wrong thing or let too much of me out!